something that unexpected

that day was the last day me with HIM..
everythings normal as usual..we look like know each other quite few years although the truth is just few months only..
we having fun with each other..
we feel so weird cause other ppl was looking at us..(dun like the feeling)

until the time that i wanna tell out smth..he know i got smth to tell out..
he know that when i acting when i lie to him and everythings..
so i straight away ask him some sensitive ques..

then he start change topic..he quite pro in change topic la..
inside the car..
i really dun wan to stand for it ady..
i say..maybe the mariah carey song suitable for us..he start acting that he dun understand..
then the time that i serious..b4 that he enjoy and smile de..when wanna back that time..he start to serious too..then i saw his face..1st time saw moody face..

dunno why i dun dare to look at him again..
the ques until now din settle yet..
but everythings hope will be normal as usual..
and what we two hope..also hope it will be reality..

i start scare cause i really dunno what the ppl will do for the next step..but i can comfirm that..
me become more mature when the things happen in front me..

I own a NEW life

yesterday,the whole day din sleep cause think about it..lastly..i think i shud own a new life for my ownself..

thanks MANDA,KOR KOR,ERIC and KWAN YEE..you guys really treat me well..you guys support me hundred percent..hmm..i sleep with kor kor o..mayb the bed prob..i din sleep the whole nite..i just turn here and there..i think everythings..

MANDA..yup..you're correct..you really a good cousin and fren..what i trust now..just you..when i got prob..everyone busy with theis own stuff..but you..you just chat with me and tham me..thanks..

KOR KOR and ERIC..thanks o..the whole nite play with so that i can really know what i want..you guys support me..you guys let me show my tempo to you all..you guys tham me..and make joke..especially ERic..you make smth that i really have fun ytd..BRO..thanks for your bed o..

KWAN YEE..although i dunno you very well..din really know you at all..but you really my best fren..you tham me..samore today you facing your spm papers..thanks..thanks and thanks..if can..next time..i also will do that to you..when you have prob..

i dunno who will read this..but what i wanna tell you all..'dun ever too stupid..try to discuss with some fren and family..they will help you as much as they can..'

btw who like pilot engineering course..plz tell me..i hope can study with you all..thanks o..

I LOVE YOU

Do you really understand the meaning of love??last time i do admit that i know all about love..but that wasn correct at all..love really hard to describe..

last year,i work at tgv cinema..i knew a guy..he quite funny la..i also dunno how i fall in love..he din really chase me at all..i still rmb that day..he chat with me..suddenly ask a ques
'let me have the chance to care you?'he asked so..
i get shocked..but i straight away say ok..
that time a guy also work at tgv..he also chase me..he really like to 'chao shui'..really hate it..but seems we work together..so just ignore it..we couple 3 weeks only..but really sweet at all..he always say that i'm childish..but i'm not..until the day that we break..quite hurt..i dunno how to say out the feeling..until this few weeks or last month..YUP..i really did forget him..i dunno when i start to dun care him..start no feeling..and all that..quite stupid rite??

NOW..i do have a bf..but i really dunno..did he love me??i always ask the same ques..then we will keep on argue cause of it..he always PERASAN DE..say how leng zai he are..but tell the truth..i really dunno how leng zai he is..cause i really dun dare look at him..why feel so shy??i really hope to tell him everythings!!but when i wanna tell..

every bad things start to stick on us..i start do care him..start to jealous..start to angry him although a little small things..i start emo and all that..last time i really dunno how to jealous..always need to act that i'm jealous..hmm..but now i know the feeling ady..really sour..dun like the feeling..

hOPe everything will be fine as i think..

sometimes i thinking that..is it what we expect sure will be perfect..but what i expect is everythings negative..my family always say that i too negative ady..is not good for us..samore i still a child(for them)..

i gonna finish my spm examination..i dunno what shud i study for my future..1st time i no direction to go..i stuck..i dunno whether what is the most important for me..i really scare i regret when i choose my journey..haiz..this few weeks..i always thinking that..what shud i do after my spm??my family ady plan for my journey life..but i dun feel i can really face every prob that will happen in future..what shud i do now??everyone support me..but how about you??will YOU support me??

i dunno how to explain well in blog cause i really weak in eng..but i lazy type in chinese..what the hell o..lol..hmm..sometimes i really feel dunno how to show my prob to others..my fren always say..tell them la..but i really dunno how to tell you guys..when i really wanna tell out..my brain and my mouth like stuck..everythings suddenly stop..really stupid o..include my really really best fren..my 'bf' and my tb best fren..they always though they know me well or what..sometimes i need to act in front of them..but i prefer acting in front them..let me always be the mystery person..:(